I've been saying things have to change for so long now, that maybe it doesn't mean anything anymore. Welcome, this is my first blog. Maybe there are no other people in my situation. Perhaps there are many. You see, I've been stuck in the seventees for so long regarding my health or lack of, I didn't know where to start to change things. I have to change.
It's very tough admitting my weaknesses, but here goes. I'm way too fat, I smoke, don't exercise regularily, am addicted to sugar and sugar substitutes, and do not have enough fun.
So, here I am, a woman in transition. I am trying to change. I want to live a healthier, longer life. The idea of changing scares me. If I think of my life as a pyramid, with the "best as I can be me" at the bottom as the foundation, I am at this moment hovering at the tip.
Here's where I was. Two years ago I was on the Slim Fast diet, exercising almost everyday and had lost 40 pounds. My reward was to have a heart attack at the too young age of 48. I have 4 stents. I had been living in fear of having another one since then. I was stagnant. I began eating terrible, smoking more, and moving less. Simply put, I gave up on living longer. I was too busy obsessing over dying to help myself. Yuck. My weight went up to 252lbs. I take a lot of pills everyday.
Here's where I am right now. Through my hospital I took a prediabetes nutrition class two years ago. Yes I'm prediabetic as well. I'm an expert on carbohydrates. I've had classes twice, and ongoing training through my wonderful, beautiful job. I use this knowledge for my job everyday. I can't lose weight with the diabetic diet, too many carbs for my fat ass bod, so I'm eating very low carb. I've lost 16 pounds. I'm on my second day of artificial sweetener detox. Oh, believe me, the withdrawals are very real. I used a lot of fake sugar everyday. I walked down to the beach last weekend. It's a slow start, but a start. Since I am giving up fake sugar, I'm drinking unsweetened cinnamon coffee right now as I'm typing. After 35 years of using sugar and then saccharin or splenda, this is tough! I am craving sweet anything right now. I'm a cola gal and am going to miss Diet Rite desperately. Oh yeah, I have an irregular heartbeat. I've had it since I was 17 years old. I am caffeine free. Still smoking.
I am going to blog about my transition. I'm hoping that somewhere out there there are people like me.
